Darkness, Revelation, Resurrection & Weakness

Sometimes the world is filled with such utter darkness and sadness that it is difficult to lift your head and take a breath. On the island of Patmos, John was writing in a time of such darkness. To me, his revelation is an honest and hopeful one. A revelation that even through unimaginable suffering, the faith can prevail. Even if the time of prevailing is a forever a way. Likewise, the resurrection, whatever it means, is a reminder of our resilience. It is a reminder of the beauty and power of the human experience. It is a reminder of death’s limitations. And perhaps its greatest relevance is when we are at our weakest.

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I’ll never understand the belief in a loving god when occasionally, your god chooses to torture a child to death. I get deism, since clearly if you believe in intentional creation is seems a lot less cruel for the prime mover to be at some remove. A personal god who feels the need to test us is a really hideous notion to me, that a conscious being is out there just hooking us up to wires and seeing what makes us flinch.

We do it to lower animals, so perhaps I could look at it that way, in which case I just have to hope that someone’s learning something very important.

I don’t believe that God tests us. I believe that God is the universe and more. So, I share your frustration about not understanding why such things happen.

I also struggle with asking myself what good is God if God doesn’t change things in our world. What good is a God that doesn’t stop this?

I don’t have some of the paths out of this problem that others have. I’m agnostic on after-life. As I mentioned, I certainly don’t see this as part of a grand “plan.”

My step away from the ledge of losing my faith is this: I believe that there is a profound Goodness in the universe. I believe that God suffers with us in times like these. I believe that is significant. It gives us a capacity to survive such things and to feel hope.

I also think God gives meaning to our lives. I find comfort in knowing that Nathan’s life was beautiful and meaningful and powerful not just because I think so.

I was talking to my pastor about all of this last night. And I want you to know that I shared with her how thankful I am to have you to have these conversations with. It strengthens my faith. You don’t let me turn away from my doubts. Thank you.

I’ll never understand the belief in a loving god when occasionally, your god chooses to torture a child to death.

What puzzles me is the clinging to the idea of an all powerful, all knowing, loving god. You can have a loving god if they are limited. If they cannot always control or predict the outcome of their actions. A god who set the universe in motion but is not in control of every little aspect.

And for me, I don’t believe in an all-powerful God, nor do I believe in a God that set things in motion and walked away.

I believe in a God that is present in our reality and that has the power to transform us, making us better and allowing us to more fully live. I don’t believe in a God that violates the laws of physics.

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